Lessons From Above

Tuesday night after a brief trip to see my kids and watch my grandson's first basketball game, I got back and stopped at the store to get the fixings to fix dinner and headed to the house. As I got into my car I knew I had my wallet, however later when we were going out to the store again I could not find it. I had been very busy since I had arrived home as I had brought some of my craft stuff with me and in order to put it away I needed to clean and rearrange my craft room. I got busy and I worked hard to get my room in some type of order so I can begin crafting more and maybe even be able to sell some crafts, at the very least Ill make some great personal gifts for friends and family.

When I first realized my wallet was gone I did not think much about it. I figured I had just misplaced it and it would resurface when I got back from the store. I turned my craft room upside down from top to bottom at least 4 times now and maybe even 6. I have been all through my house to many times to count, cleaned my car out and check and rechecked as well as going through my trash at least 3 times. I'll be the first to admit it has driven me absolutely crazy and made me feel as though I was loosing my mind. I have prayed and prayed and had my friends praying and its still gone.. 

In my wallet is so many important things, my drivers license, my debit card, my insurance card, a gift card, pictures and even some cash. My wallet is like my lifeline and my ability to prove who I am, it has my means to buy food at the store and gas at the station for my car, or gifts for friends. My wallet has my ability to show that I have insurance at the Doctor's office or to pick up medicine at the pharmacy if need be and not have to pay full price. It has my pass to the Exploration place and pictures of my grandkids along with some cash.. Not much cash, but enough to get a snack or a drink if I needed while out. In other words in my wallet is like a lifeline it's like it is my ability to prove who I am for all the worldly reasons. In some ways it is a source of security.. Who I am? Wanna see my ID? That will be$4.99. So here I sit not able to prove who I am, pay for things, gain access to things and prove that I have insurance and it is a real pain in the back side.

I have cried out to the Lord, I have prayed and have others praying too. I finally sat back and said Oh Lord You are the only one who can fix this. I cannot fix this or find it on my own. I decided today to just not spend all day looking for my wallet. I have prayed, done my Bible study and just tried to leave it alone today so I did not drive myself more crazy. I also know that God is the only one who can bring my wallet back to me at this point. As I sat here today thinking and praying, I could not help but feel like God was trying to teach me a lesson through all of this. What is that lesson? I am not entirely sure at this moment, but I know that it won't be until God knows I have learned what He is trying to teach me that my wallet will show back up. Or that maybe I will have to go through all the pain of having to  drive 5 hours back to get my id replaced,  trying to cancel cards and wait for them to be sent again, replace my insurance cards and loose the gift cards that are in the wallet that till have a balance on them.

I will be the first to say that I have been on a struggle bus with life for awhile now. I have fallen away and my testimony has been shaken some, as I got hurt by some, to busy to listen to the Lord, fallen away and stopped attending Church or time with like minded believers. I have been trying to do life on my own for a minute now. A few months ago God really started trying to talk to me and get my attention. I was stubborn, hard headed and very adamant that I was going to do what I thought was right and not what He might be calling me to do. And then God started to get my attention. You see my guy was going out of state to work to be able to make a living and I was very sure I was not going to move away. Then I had to have surgery in which I was going to be pretty much helpless for awhile, which turned into longer than I anticipated. You see I was planning to let him take care of me for a couple of weeks then I was gonna go home.. Well God in His way got my attention and I had to be down longer than I was anticipated. During my down time I had to be "quiet" while in my down and quiet time I started to realize that maybe I was where I am supposed to be at this time. I have not been as stressed, upset, nervous and uptight as I was. I got back into Church and although I miss home and my kids I feel like I am where I am supposed to be at this moment. I am learning to bloom where I am planted.. Do I still have to pray about it? yes I do.. Do I still question if its what God wants? Yes, however I can see His hand all over it.

So as I sat here today thinking to myself oh my gosh here I am with nothing, no id, no insurance card, no debit card, no cash. No way to prove who I am or that I have insurance or anyway to pay at the store. I also know my id, insurance card and stuff are not as important as people being able to identify and see Christ through me and see my identity in Christ. I know that He is the almighty and that He will either put my hands on my wallet in a way that only He can do and I can tell you I promise to testify about how He placed my hands on my wallet in a way that only He can as I have exhausted all the avenues and places that I can think of. He wants me to know that no matter what it is Hs in control and that I need to trust Him in everyway and all the time. 

I may not have my id to prove who I am , but I have Christ in me and it is more important that you see Him through me and know Him than me to show my id to prove who I am . You need to see who I am through Him and what He can do for you if you give Him a chance. Yes He allows things to happen to get our attention, to teach us a lesson and to help grow our relationship with Him and to help make our testimony bigger and better. 

So Lord Jesus as I get ready to sign off and go to bed tonight, I thank You for my lost wallet and the lessons I am learning and will learn through this situation that will bring You glory. I pray that You will show me the way to where my wallet is, not because my wallet it who I am, but because it makes things easier in daily life, but I also know I am who I am in You and my identity in You is most important and my testimony to others about You and how great You are is what I need to focus on.

So Lord I will sing Your praise and testify Your goodness. I truly cannot wait to tell everyone How you have worked through this situation and how my wallet showed up in a way that can only be YOU..  I love you Lord .. Thank You for loving me. I praise YOU..

So I say to you, Ask and keep on asking and it shall be given you: seek and keep on seeking and you shall find; knock and keep on knocking and the door shall be opened to you. Luke 11:9

Jesus looked at them and said, " With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26

Jesus looked at them and said, "with man this is impossible, but not with God: all things are possible with God. Mark 10:27

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer. Matthew 21:22

God Is Good All the Time

All the time God is Good